A History of my Disturbing Dreams_ysis Are Welcome_?

In reference to your second dream, I think that you are angry inside, but because you are afraid of violence you do not know how to let it out so it haunts you in your dream. Hence apologizing after hitting your perpetrator. Your death in these dreams may be reference to losing or almost losing someone or something that you were close to. When you try and pull the steel out of your belly you are trying to pull something evil or unwanted that is inside of you or someone who is bad for you. I hope I helped you at least a little.